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Monday 6:14 a.m., JFK check-in line. The guy in front of me is yawning so hard I swear his jaw will crack. He mutters that his red-eye was “only” five hours and he’s got a pitch at noon. I hand him one of the spare Provigil I keep in a mint tin. By the time […]

I was halfway through a 12-hour shift at the hospital gift shop when my coworker slid me a blister pack like we were in a spy movie. “Half a tab keeps me awake for inventory night,” she whispered. That was my first taste of Provigil 100 mg–no jittery espresso heart, just clean, quiet alertness that […]

Last Tuesday, 3 a.m., my neighbor’s dog discovered the joys of opera. I had a code drop at seven. One 200 mg Provigil later, I was proof-reading logs while the rest of the street counted sheep. No doctor’s waiting room, no awkward small-talk–just a bookmarked pharmacy page and the courier who knows to leave the […]

Three a.m. and your IDE is still open? Same. I once paid a guy named “cryptoMike” for “generic Moda” that turned out to be dyed aspirin. After that disaster I started hanging out in the subreddit r/afinil, reading the monthly vendor threads like they were sacred scripture. The names that pop up again and again–ModaXL, […]

Last Tuesday, 7:14 a.m.–my neighbor Mia was already on her second cup of coffee and still yawning like a lion. She opened her phone, tapped twice, and thirty hours later a discreet envelope slid through her mail slot. Inside: twenty blister-packed tablets of Provigil (modafinil 200 mg). No doctor-office small talk, no pharmacy queue stretching […]

Last Tuesday at 06:15 my neighbor texted: “Coffee stopped working–any ideas?” She’s a resident juggling 14-hour shifts and two toddlers. I told her the same thing I told my cousin who flies red-eyes for a cargo airline: Provigil, the tiny 200 mg pill that keeps you awake without turning you into a trembling espresso bean. […]